I’ve been in partial hibernation since the weekend. After handing in an essay on Friday I’ve been kind of washed out. I didn’t think I was sick until I realised I was getting tired walking up the stairs (there are seven of them).
So I decided to give myself a break over the weekend, and just did a bit of socialising here and there (like going to the football).
The time this allowed for resting was amazing! So as Monday arrived I decided to declare it another day of rest. And then Tuesday too. I went to uni in the evening and nearly fell over with the exertion it took to walk there. So Wednesday came along, and it was declared yet another day of rest.
This is a total revelation for me because, like so many, I feel very guilty when I’m doing nothing. Family members would be surprised to hear this because they watch me do nothing a lot, but usually there’s a flood of guilt before, during and after any period of not-work, even if it constitutes socialising or family events.
So here’s what I’ve discovered will contribute to successful partial hibernation:
- It’s partial: I still walk to the supermarket, and go to uni and still talk to friends on the phone. I’m still writing dinner plans in my diary and constructing lists of things I will do when I climb out of my cave (which is more of a cubby than a cave – not so cold and dark, more sunny and breezy).
- Regular life is waiting for me: It’s helps to know that regular, busy life is waiting for me to return to it. It’s different to breaks between jobs because in between jobs all the nice things I do (reading books and blogs mostly) become the total sum of my life – which is quite dull and feels a bit pointless.
- I needed to name it: I didn’t realise until this morning that I was in partial hibernation. Until that moment I still felt a bit lazy and restless. I’ve felt progressively more at ease as the days have passed, but next time I will be able to jump straight into it without having to convince myself that it’s time for a rest. I will just declare partial hibernation and switch off my alarm clock.